i will

i will breathe

i will think of solutions

I talk to myself.  Not a lot, but enough.  You might too. It is not a function of schizophrenia or personality disorder.   The inner monologue creates the guidance I need to hear.  Self-talk can be positive and helpful – it echoes the words I need to hear.

I talk to myself because I need to remember.  I need to remember who I am, who I desire to be, how I know to get there.  Remembering takes us back to the place of knowing.  Not the layers of holiday junk, the deepest knowing – that you are beloved and capable and connected to everything you need.

The holidays draw us into unrealistic expectations of all sorts.  There is an air of joy that is not always born out of authentic places.  Remember what you know.  Remind yourself.  Say to yourself now what you need to remember.  It will replay in the moments your spirit needs to hear it